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[dyaddyissues]

"you've reached kylo ren. leave a message. or don't."

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[dyaddyissues]

Will it ever be enough, Rey? Even if we spend a whole lifetime here? [ It's cruel, he's aware of it. But he's been prepared for the idea that one of them would have to die. By the other's hand, or other circumstances, and he knew that it was far more likely to be him.

He's almost accepted his fate.

Almost. ]

I don't know what you believe I deserve, but you may be in the minority in that case. You and I both know the things I've done -- and if my mother is as dead as you say, I'd be looking at a prison cell, exile or an executioner's blade were I to make it out of the war.

[ Kylo sighs, thumbing her tears away. ]

I don't want to tell you to let me go, or not to dwell on it. But I refuse to watch you lose yourself to the fear that you'll lose me. That same fear lead my grandfather to becoming Vader - I can't watch you make the same mistakes he did.

[jedied]

[ His words make her cry harder and she shakes her head furiously raging against the truth of them. ]

I don't care. I want a whole lifetime with you, even here. I want us to be happy for once in our lives. Can you say you have been, ever? Really?

[ She had been a few time in her memory, but not nearly enough to have ever gotten used to the emotion. ]

Things are bad here, but people keep making little pockets of life for themselves. I want cookies and hot cocoa and as many days together as we have left here, and no, it'll never be enough. I still want it.