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[dyaddyissues]

"you've reached kylo ren. leave a message. or don't."

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[ after the Mercy hospital event ]

[jedied]

[ A note, left on the bedside table. Rey's few belongings are gone from their shared room. ]

Ben,

I'm sorry for doing this in a letter, but I couldn't stand the thought of hurting you any more than I already have, and I didn't want this to become one last fight.

I know you've already forgiven me for what I did in Mercy, but I can't accept your forgiveness. I hurt you, and I couldn't stop myself from hurting you. I wasn't strong enough to resist harming even you, even with our bond. It means I'm not a safe person to be around, not for anyone, but especially not you.

I can't hurt you like that again. I won't.

I can't leave this place entirely, but I can't stay here.

I love you. That hasn't changed, and it won't. But I won't create more painful memories that will crowd out the good ones until we can no longer stand to look at one another.

I'm sorry.

- Rey

[dyaddyissues]

[ when Kylo sees the note, he feels something in him sink. He reads it in silence, sitting on his bed in the empty room, the red dragon he'd taken in nudging at his feet.

With his head in his hands, he sits for what seems like an eternity.

And then without warning, he's up on his feet, slamming the bedside table into the wall with a CRASH. He's not sure how long he rages, only that the dragon has fled the room at this point. Figures. Everyone leaves. Nobody is ever happy, especially not them.

Ignoring the wetness on his face, he sends her a message. ]

And what about what I want?

Fine. Fine. Have your pity time and run away. Don't know what I was expecting.

But we're not finished, you and I. I refuse to let you spend the rest of your days here guilty over an act you weren't even in your right mind when you committed, as I know you'd not allow me to do the same were our positions switched.

When the time comes, and it will, I'll find you.

I love you.

[ if she tries to call him back, he won't answer. he leaves the bond untouched. ]

[dyaddyissues]

Also, you should know that Sunny is here and I'm not giving her back. You will just have to come get her if you want her.