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[dyaddyissues]

"you've reached kylo ren. leave a message. or don't."

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[dyaddyissues]

What is there to talk about.

[jedied]

Don't be difficult. We both made compromises to avoid hurting others. I'm not angry with you.

[ She hasn't given herself time to consider whether or not there might be a twinge of jealousy underneath her general concern. This entire situation is a knot she can't imagine he's in any less of a hurry to untie. ]

[dyaddyissues]

You should be angry. I am.
We could've fought back.

[jedied]

I wasn't going to let them beat and drug Luke any more than you would've let them harm that girl you married.

It doesn't have to mean anything more than we let it.

[dyaddyissues]

You're married to my uncle, Rey. That's not something I can pretend never happened.

Tell me you're honestly alright with this, and I will let it go.

[ force, he wishes he could just act is if it hadn't, that it means nothing -- it had been forced upon them, really. but he's not Luke Skywalker. ]

[jedied]

None of us chooses the things they inflict upon us here. You know that.

I'm not, but at least he's someone I know and trust. It could've been worse.

[ Someone who might actually demand adherence to marital norms, perhaps. She would've fought harder if it had been a complete stranger, but Luke was a friend. She could handle swapping rooms for a while until they could undo things, if it became necessary to keep up the pretense. ]

[dyaddyissues]

You trust him now. Have so much as a nightmare and you may wake up to his lightsaber held over your head.

[ That's not fair and he knows it, this is not the Luke he knew growing up... but it's still hard to reconcile that. still hard for Kylo to trust him. And maybe he's a little bit jealous, that she'll likely be rooming with him for the next near future. Like he will have to with this girl he barely knows.

So maybe if he pushes at this long enough, she'll see it his way.

Right? ]

[jedied]

That isn't fair. He's not that person yet, and if you'd sit down and get to know him as he is here you'd know that.

We aren't the same people we were, either.

[dyaddyissues]

No, I suppose we're not.

Would you still have gone through with it, for the same reasons... If it had been me.

[jedied]

Ben...

If it had been you I would have wanted it to be real.

[ Honestly. If he doesn't understand that by now he's not paying attention. ]

[dyaddyissues]

[ But why did you say no before? He types, and retypes this message at least ten times. ]

Do you mean that.

[jedied]

Yes.

[ How is he a mind-reader and this oblivious? ]

I looked for you. I said there was someone else.

[dyaddyissues]

[ Please, Rey, you know who you're talking to. But also, the inability to believe himself worthy of someone feeling... that way. About him. ]

I looked for you too.

[ You know, after he'd tried to fight off the demons who were forcing this, but the fact remains. ]

[jedied]

We can get it undone. Or ignore the rules like we already have a hundred times.

[ She doesn't want to see anyone punished for it, but this had happened before and surely not everyone who'd been married the last time still remained so. ]

[dyaddyissues]

I just. I don't want to see you hurt, if we're punished for non compliance.

[jedied]

I know.

I don't want to see anyone hurt. Alina's new here, too. I know it's awkward, but you'll be kind to her, won't you?

[dyaddyissues]

I didn't realize you two had met.

She hasn't given me any reason not to. If I'm being honest, she reminds me a bit of you.

[jedied]

We met at the carnival. She seemed nice.

Does she? Well, if you decide you genuinely want to be with her, I won't stop you.

[ Is she teasing him? Probably. ]

[dyaddyissues]

I met here there too.

[ he'd given her finger food. she wasn't pleased. not the best first impression. ]

If we somehow develop a multidimensional bond that spans across space, you will be the first to know. In the meantime, I don't think you have to worry about that. She is kind, and reminds me of you, yes, but there is only you.

[jedied]

[ Displeased with food? Rey is starting to doubt that this girl is anything at all like her! ]

I'm not worried.

We can work this to all of our advantages. Have you seen the marriage suites? I say we go along with it all, secure ourselves our own kitchens, and work out equitable bed-sharing arrangements.

[dyaddyissues]

[ They were fingers. Human fingers. ]

I haven't seen them, but I hear they are quite spacious. Much more so than the room we've shared together.

There's a kitchen? You could've started with that in the first place.

I suppose we could make this work.

[jedied]

[ ... Okay, probably not the worst thing Rey has ever eaten in that they wouldn't poison her, but fair! ]

I thought I should start with "are we okay" before I got to "I have a plan that involves food" but as I type that out I realize that it was a ridiculous and truly uncharacteristic approach.

Are we okay, though? I'm tired of fighting. We could skip it this once.

[dyaddyissues]

I figured you would've brought up the plan involving food first, my mistake.

[ is he ribbing her? perhaps a little bit. but there's a slight pause, in which Kylo reads her text over and over again before starting on his own reply. "are we okay? can we skip the fighting?" he frowns, an uncomfortable comparison coming front to his mind.

they're like his parents, if his parents had lightsabers. ]

I thought we were going to fight when you first contacted me. I was... counting on it, really.

[jedied]

I know. I thought texting was a better idea than waiting until we were within shouting range.

[ And stabbing range, for that matter. ]

I'm sorry you were hurt by the choice of partner. It wasn't my choice. We'll work out how to get it undone once things are more settled, if it matters that much to you. And in the meantime you can talk to Luke. He cares about you. I'm sure he doesn't want this to hurt you, either.

[dyaddyissues]

We're still able to argue over the text, but there is at least less of a chance of someone getting stabbed this way.

[ just saying what you're thinking here, Rey. ]

I know. That you didn't get to choose. I shouldn't have gotten angry with you over it.

You have more faith in me than you should in that regard. If it makes you happy, I'll try.